Life Interrupted

I am craving certainty in a time that has very little. I am craving direction in a seemingly directionless season. I am craving something tangible, something to which I can cling to so the ambiguity of living doesn’t seem quite so debilitating.

The romanticized notion of endless opportunity that once sounded so tempting now causes crippling fear.

Looking at the life set before you, you realize you have nothing but opportunity. You have been adequately prepared for the journey. You can achieve what you’ve always dreamed. It’s just a matter of doing. It’s almost as if having constraints or limitations of some kind would provide a sense of peace, knowing that there are some things that are simply out of reach.

We hear things like:

Lean into ambiguity.
Be open to possibility.
The sky’s the limit.
Take risks.
Pursue your wildest dreams.

The pursuit of dreams, however, contains an element of fear. In times of uncertainty the decision must be made to step out of the comfortable, to step out in faith. There is no longer that “one day” or that “perfect timing.” The time is now and time is not waiting.

My heart so badly lusts after something to hold onto. It wants something or someone to come and provide guidance, to provide certainty.

To live life fully, to live life interrupted, we must cling to the idea that a job, a new opportunity, a person or a new relationship might come crashing in and force us to change our plans. That something or someone entering in has the potential to interrupt everything and inspire redirection.

Planning is a myth. I’ve been forced to realize that the beauty of staying open to opportunity is the most beautiful gift I can receive.

Tomorrow holds the possibility for new experiences, conversations, and relationships. The idea of tomorrow provides the hope that my heart so desperately craves. Tomorrow opens my soul to the knowledge that certainty limits life interrupted. To truly be interruptible, we must lean into the unknown with faith that something will happen, though we might not know what it is just yet.

I pause. I try to listen more carefully this time:

Lean into ambiguity.
Be open to possibility.
The sky’s the limit.
Take risks.
Pursue your wildest dreams.

Though these ideas may be deeply romantic, I argue that if we want to find joy at the heart of each and every day, we must embrace romantic thought. If we approach living as a to-do list, a series of challenging decisions, and people as utilitarian characters in the narrative of our lives, we lose beauty. We lose joy. We become uninterruptible.

We spend far too much time approaching life as a series of formulas and calculations. Life becomes interruptible when we take risks, pursue our dreams, and truly believe that the sky IS the limit. Romantic? Incredibly. Necessary? Absolutely.

Embrace tomorrow and the questions that it brings. Lust after beauty. When life becomes interruptible, the question of how or why no longer looms large; rather, each day becomes an opportunity to uncover something new. What a joy it is to become fearlessly committed to discovering an endless array of tomorrows.


Devon White is a recent college graduate pursuing her dreams in fashion writing and world traveling. She is passionate about a wide variety of liquids, from espresso to fine wines and whiskey. She is a music and photography enthusiast. Her work can be found at devongriffin.com and on Instagram at @devvvwhite.

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