Habakkuk is a book in the Bible, where there’s a quote: ‘though it linger, wait for it.’ You always want to save the world— but it’s okay if you save one person, and it’s okay if that person is you.
11:36 in the arms of a stranger
how do you feel now,
in the centre of your loneliness?
how do you feel after building up walls
and digging out moats
and closing the gates
and withdrawing the bridges
to isolate yourself from this life?
how do you feel after opening the door
to those you do not want to love?
after letting people stain your heart?
let a shudder pass through your body
and demand more for yourself–
demand more from yourself.
to the phoenix in all of us
i will pick my shoulders up from the dirt
and stand in my own ashes
my neck will hurt
and my bones may break
but i am willing to try
so this is what it’s like
to begin again. waiting
for my cells to replace themselves
and quitting the daily habit
of turning sideways in my mirror,
going to church.
tearing the last page out
and placing my pen on cleaner paper.